What is maturity?

I remembered about someone told me that I am childish. For my age, that is not a good thing. That is what he thinks. Well, after thinking about it for a while, I guess that is both true and not. It is true that have my immature characters, but I do have my mature sides,too. People don't live in a 2 dimension world. We live in a complex situation, where we can't judge something looking only from one side. For example, maybe somebody is very bad in maths, but he might be a genius with words and persuasion. Back to which side we are seeing. I, as a human, grow and become mature with experiences I got in life. But, if I ratify it, I'd be confused. I tried to ratify it once, but I end up acting like a real baby. It's all in the mind, if I might say. Hm, got stuck. I'll continue if I have the time. LOL.

Oh, my Indonesia.

Good morning/day/evening, readers.

Today I'm up with a hot news here, in Indonesia, where I am at right now. Have you heard about Sri Mulyani, the Minister of Finance of Indonesia, being asked to work in World Bank? And she chose to work there, the President has approved it. Wow, honestly, I... don't know what to feel. There is a feeling of amazement, well, the world must approve of Indonesia now. In contrast, isn't it a loss for Indonesia? Sri Mulyani, as everyone would know, is a very intelligent woman, a perfect strategy-maker, whom made Indonesia's money matter gotten better. Well, I think, she should stay in Indonesia, for a better future. But, of course, most people would drool over the chance to work in a very very very cool bank, that would give them a promising future. Great income, easy life, cash- oriented. And why would she reject it? patriotism? Heh, she even got stuck in Indonesian politic. The case of Century Bank? That is one aspect. She was involved in this corruption problem. Well, God knows about this matter. It hasn't cleared up yet, and she is still being interrogated for this. Whether she is guilty in this matter, still, the money she got in here is far less than what the United States' Government can give. I don't have the right to dispute against it.

That is one example of Indonesia's retardation. Well, I'm not trying to talk bad about my own country, I'm just being realistic. As any country would know, Indonesia is well-known for its corruption problem. That is true. The representatives are not doing what they should do. Most of them live in ease, easy money, easy live, hedonism. While, on the outside of their houses, there are poor people, whom just for a plate of food, they must drag their feet, dig up trash bins. While the big bellies laugh, the living- skeletons cry for their under-nourished babies. To compare this country to other first - world country, this condition in Indonesia seems to resemble the condition of the developed country during the 18th century. I think, every country would need these phase in becoming developed, that's why third - world country are said to be "developing" country. But how long should we wait until another revolution, that lead us to modern theatrical stage without poverty behind the scene? This country should change. I often hear about the amount of money used here and there in Indonesia, that is actually can be suppressed. The problem is, back to the authority - holders. People who are used to use expensive stuff, would reject cheap ones, although the quality differs a little. This is one problem. Many people know that Indonesia has a mass number of poor people. If the money used to satisfy the representatives, the ministers, the whom- income-are-great is so very much, when shall the poor live a proper lifestyle? They should realise how they would destroy this country. We - Indonesians primarily - should, too. We can not live in this state no more. We must understand what is going to happen if we serve others first. Well, what's going to happen is good,then. We should think about our personal benefits later. That is for a successful life. It is hard to achieve this, as this selfish attitude has grown in the heart of the nation ( even my parents are like that!), but why can't we change it? That what the rebellion in young people's hearts are for. Rebellion for a better future. Rebellion for success. Rebellion for justice. And that is up to the youngsters' hearts and mind, and some adults who understand. I wrote this not to spoil the bad things about my country. I wrote this to share my view about my own country which has a lot of potential to be great, as great as United States right now, or maybe even greater ( no offence,dude). I just hope for the best for my country. This is one way I can participate in politics. Politics should not always be thought by brain, but also coordinated with a heart. No brain should work without feeling.

I may be am a narcissist but I'm not a romantic.

Lol. Well, that is one random fact I try to figure out. Last night, my significant other was being sweet in text messages (something he rarely does). Well, I just figured out that I messed it up. lol He used emoticons, and I messed it up with words. haha. well, yea, dear. I aint no romantic. Please, keep being one for me. But still he is a mood-changer (from good to bad, that's what I mean) at all time.

Just so you know, life is okay now. I got things going on simpler than last month. I guess because one problem is over. I am no more a highschooler, and not yet a college student. Getting into university is a harder task, I realised. Most of my friends already got their chosen subjects in universities, but I haven't. I'll get one, hopefully. Well, gotta study more!