I fail and this is a trial. KEEP ON BEING POSITIVE!

Folks, Let me start with a bad news. I failed the university entrance test. Sad, yes, but that is logical. Why not? I chose the subjects that need the highest score: that is Medicine faculty of the two most favourite universities in my country. I do feel bad for that, but it is not actually for myself. It is for my parents. I don't know how much they will feel dissatisfied and upset because of this. I used to be clever in all subjects during school days, but... it does not seem as if I'm still that clever.

As for me, I'm easygoing. I believe if I don't get this, then it is not my way. Or, that university is not meant for me. Now I'm not sure if being a doctor is my way, and, to be honest, I have always thought and still thinking about being a psychologist. My mindset is that my education can help me when I become a mother. Being a doctor, I can open a self-practice at home and being close to my children. If I become a psychologist, then I can understand my children the best, especially when they get into their adolescence phase. I don't really like a subject that, when I get the degree, I have to leave my family and get to work. Damn, that is boring and hurtful.

As a woman, I should have at least a title on my name, and also income. Whether it is active or passive income, as long as I have money. So I don't totally depend on my hubby. That is what really want.

Well, it is not good to always look upon bad things. We should be positive thinkers to succeed,right? The good thing is... I don't know. LOL. I guess staying alive is a good thing. Yea, because if you're alive, even though you fail right now, you can try again and again to reach whatever your goal is. But, if you're dead already, then.....

We should thank God for everything the Almighty has given us. Everything in our life is precious.Even things that are in our eyes negative, may actually be a bless in disguise. It is up to us, how we see things, how we respond to life challenges.

Boring Monday

Folks, Monday is a working day in every part of the world,right? People always have something to do on this day. People get to work, children get to school. Nothing like freedom is available on Monday, except when it is a national day. while people are outside, I am sitting inside the house, going on line, doing nothing, feeling bored and started to write. This is what they call free from Monday? No! I shout it, no! This is no way a freedom. Do you know why? Because I am not allowed to go outside. I'm bounded by something called rules!

One or two rules would not hurt, but rules not to go outside?! That is an offence. I am a woman of freedom. I have the right to have my freedom and the right to do what I want.This is a jail for me. I live in my relative's house, and that means my parents still have their eyes on me. Darn. This is sickening. My parents does not let me to have my own decisions in my life. I want to try things in this life. I want to have experience in things.

All this time, I realise I spent too much money on useless things. However, this time I am trying to change me. I want to try to succeed in life. I want to be active in the society, getting people under my influence little by little so that later, there will be an easy access to everything for me since my connection is wide. See? I am thinking for my future. But,can they see right through me? See what I really want to do? They don't even give any support, not once in my memory. All they do is rejecting my ideas, telling me I have no initiation and all those stuff that would let down any children, any teenagers in this world. Or, they will be neutral. They never put their hands on my shoulder: think so positively to what I do. All they want me to do is submissive to their commands, although they may let me go too late for chances in life.

Like right now, during a Monday, a busy day, I'm just sitting here, with nothing to do. I actually have a lot in my to do list, but they must be delayed or even cancelled because of the disapproval of my parents. Is there anybody who can tell me what to do? Let my parents live my life? or what?

decision

Hello,readers. This time, I have something in mind to share. not like the last time I wrote, this time, I will finish all my thoughts, no "to be continued".

For your information, at the moment, I am doing a business. This is not a very risky business, not one with complicated procedures. A very little capital needed, a possibility of high income. Who doesn't want it? I have no problem about it, but there is one thing that is preventing me from my struggle to succeed, it is my parents. Parents.

Just so you know, before I started doing this business, I asked for my parents permission. I text them, emailed them, but they did not call me. So, I take the initiation to start doing it. I thought, They would allow me to try, at least. Because I haven't used their money yet, and I would not anyway. I will strive to use everything from my own hand. But then, yesterday, my so-called father, called and start shouting at me, telling me I have no permission to do this. Hey, I have already done it. And I will not stop doing it. I will prove it to your face, dad. That is my promise, keep that in mind.

I can't think of an ultimate reason why they always disapprove my things.

All they do is just confronting everything I do, complaining and complaining, and so, in the end, I might be a woman of no position, I do what people tell me to do, I don't do what people tell me to not do, I am a total servant of the world. Total loser.

I don't want to be like such. I'll ask them to read a book titled " the Cashflow Quadrant", written by Robert T. Kiyosaki. This book has the reason of why I do this business. I'll show them that waiting will make me a loser. Waiting until I graduate from university is fatal. Can you think, in this crisis, it is getting harder to find a good job. If I keep on waiting until I get graduated, I will have the difficulty to get a job. Even doctors. One of my teachers said in the next 5 years, doctos will knock on people's doors to ask if there is someone sick in the house, according to how "much" doctors will be in this world.

That is why I decide to try this business. I don't know why my parents doesn't let me doing this. If the reason is that I haven't been accepted in any university, I am still trying. I never put down that one. I will get a place in university as a student. NO need to worry. and by the way, why do we get into universities? to get a good job,right? But reality says that there is so very little job opportunities around here. Then, what is the studying for?

If the reason is to open our mind, creating a new way of thinking, in this business, we are being taught the same, so, in other words, I have no loss.

But of course, I will still get into university.

I just hope my parents would open their mind about this, and stop calling me bad names, I hate it. And one more, let me decide what is best for myself.