hello! and happy ied al-Fitr for Muslims in all parts of the world. How was your fasting? Did it does you any good? Mine was.... you don't need to know. I can't say i'm satisfied with it, because I did not put my all into it. My way was blocked by menstruation. I know it's not something I should talk about, but it's the fact. I'm not blaming it, I believe it comes from God. It's my life line from the Lord.
How was the first day of Ied? did you go to your relatives'? I did, although I don't really recognise them. Just so you know, I'm now in Abu Dhabi International Airport, on the way back to qatar. I told you Í moved to Indonesia, and that's true. I'm just visiting my parents and I'll be back before 1 October. Tiring, I know. But I don't want to say it out loud.
Nothing feels different. Nothing changes in me. I'm still the overly laid back kid you know yesterday. That's weird(despite I already know that I'm weird). I should feel different. I should feel like I'm much older now and I must be more responsible. I should change! I don't know whats wrong with the procedure. Or could it be because everything happened too sudden?
Im coming home now. I should be happy,right? But I feel so so, nothing extreme. I feel like making a sin. Life is always like this for me. Does it does the same to you?
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
headache!
it's not a physical headache actually, it's more like something you wish to kill. it's disappointment.
yesterday, (or a few days ago) my other grandma,who came from Aceh, asked me to go to my uncle's house and sleepover in the house, she would pick me up from my granddad's house. it's normal. A grandma who had not meet her granddaughter in a long time will use every moment to meet up and share the time together. I understand that and I was happy to accept the invitation. But life is random. nobody can guess what will happen to you that makes you unable to do something, or to meet someone important. God did not allow me to meet up with her. My mobile was broken at the night before the day and I was unable to contact her at all, because her number was not kept in the sim card.
So, I called my uncle in the morning and asked him to tell my grandma that my mobile is broken and I'm going to repair it,therefore i won't be available for sometime. I told him to tell her my granddad's mobile number and the telephone number in order to inform whether i'm in the house at the time.
Then I went to repair my mobile. I waited for any contact from her. Nothing. No calls, or even SMS. So, I thought she did not go yet. I went back home at 3 p.m. and I was still waiting for her. I did not change my clothes. Then, at 4 p.m. she called. She told me that she came but nobody was at home. I was trully shocked. I thought,"how can she be like that? I thought I sent a message thru someone close to tell her about my inconvenience." She spoke to me as if I AM the one in the wrong side, not her loveliest son-in-law. great, I thought. She started to be like the person I don't like. She texted me which said to go direct to her and not to any other person. WT.....!! I was really angry. and upset. and of course disappointed.
She called me more than once. I know that she as disappointed, so was I! It's not like the world revolves around her..
It's just... really annoying when someone is so sensible and try to show it up. I am also so very sensible , but I try to HIDE it down. because not everyone like such people. I always try to give it my bestest expressions : smile, laugh,jokes; although when the time is the worst in my life. Or is it because that is how a woman do things? If it is so, than I would gladly clarify that i'm still a little girl.
yesterday, (or a few days ago) my other grandma,who came from Aceh, asked me to go to my uncle's house and sleepover in the house, she would pick me up from my granddad's house. it's normal. A grandma who had not meet her granddaughter in a long time will use every moment to meet up and share the time together. I understand that and I was happy to accept the invitation. But life is random. nobody can guess what will happen to you that makes you unable to do something, or to meet someone important. God did not allow me to meet up with her. My mobile was broken at the night before the day and I was unable to contact her at all, because her number was not kept in the sim card.
So, I called my uncle in the morning and asked him to tell my grandma that my mobile is broken and I'm going to repair it,therefore i won't be available for sometime. I told him to tell her my granddad's mobile number and the telephone number in order to inform whether i'm in the house at the time.
Then I went to repair my mobile. I waited for any contact from her. Nothing. No calls, or even SMS. So, I thought she did not go yet. I went back home at 3 p.m. and I was still waiting for her. I did not change my clothes. Then, at 4 p.m. she called. She told me that she came but nobody was at home. I was trully shocked. I thought,"how can she be like that? I thought I sent a message thru someone close to tell her about my inconvenience." She spoke to me as if I AM the one in the wrong side, not her loveliest son-in-law. great, I thought. She started to be like the person I don't like. She texted me which said to go direct to her and not to any other person. WT.....!! I was really angry. and upset. and of course disappointed.
She called me more than once. I know that she as disappointed, so was I! It's not like the world revolves around her..
It's just... really annoying when someone is so sensible and try to show it up. I am also so very sensible , but I try to HIDE it down. because not everyone like such people. I always try to give it my bestest expressions : smile, laugh,jokes; although when the time is the worst in my life. Or is it because that is how a woman do things? If it is so, than I would gladly clarify that i'm still a little girl.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
after a looong absence..
hi hi hi! how's everything? I'm safe and sound. for your information, i'm still in indonesia.
i told you guys that i'll be back to qatar by 12 september.
But lots of things have happened and I stayed in indonesia until now. The truth is.. i moved back to Indonesia. I changed my school. I'm now a student of an Indonesian school. How can it be? I'm also amazed if I remind everything.
It was 2 months ago, July , to be quite exact. My dad called at 10 p.m. and told my grandma if she can put me in a school in Indonesia (my grandma's a teacha). After a long talk then my grandma tried to put me in. and after a looooooooooong procedure,that I dont want you to know, im a student of that school.
The school's great! the classmates are the coolest! but the subjects are the most unfriendly. it's drn dificult!!! but I believe I can! *force myself to believe it*
I dont wanna talk much about it bcz I forgot most of it. You just need to know that i'm now a student of this school called SMAN 3 in Jakarta.
Ok guys, I know this makes no sense, but I must go offline now.
Adieu,! c U!
i told you guys that i'll be back to qatar by 12 september.
But lots of things have happened and I stayed in indonesia until now. The truth is.. i moved back to Indonesia. I changed my school. I'm now a student of an Indonesian school. How can it be? I'm also amazed if I remind everything.
It was 2 months ago, July , to be quite exact. My dad called at 10 p.m. and told my grandma if she can put me in a school in Indonesia (my grandma's a teacha). After a long talk then my grandma tried to put me in. and after a looooooooooong procedure,that I dont want you to know, im a student of that school.
The school's great! the classmates are the coolest! but the subjects are the most unfriendly. it's drn dificult!!! but I believe I can! *force myself to believe it*
I dont wanna talk much about it bcz I forgot most of it. You just need to know that i'm now a student of this school called SMAN 3 in Jakarta.
Ok guys, I know this makes no sense, but I must go offline now.
Adieu,! c U!
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