I am really worried if I would not be able to succeed in my future. I'm doing my best right now, but I still am not good in some subjects and miss out a year study. It's really difficult for me to catch up... But I'm still trying. The way the world revolves around me is somehow weird. I always feel ok, but the real thing is not clear and I don't know where will my life lead me to.
But I know, there is the Almighty controlling me and my life. I don't have to worry too much. Just giving the best is enough. But still, my parents wish for me to succeed...
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
hmmm...
It has been a long absence since I last wrote a post. I got too many ideas during my absence, that I got no idea what to write today. Annoying,really. Just when you get an idea, you don't have the chance to write it down. But afterall, i'm still alive.
Life is never flat. That is what they say. and it happens to me. but not to some people. aaah... sooo boriiing... without something meaningful to write about..... I'm dyiingg.... heeelllp. (being random)
Life is never flat. That is what they say. and it happens to me. but not to some people. aaah... sooo boriiing... without something meaningful to write about..... I'm dyiingg.... heeelllp. (being random)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
gaaah! I fail MATHHHHH!!!!
Three more days and the midsemester exams finally over. I can't say i'm satisfied with my marks, and I'm really NOT! I can't believe I got 76 on Biology!!! That's a break down for me... I should reach at least 80/100 in Bio so that The U of Indonesian will accept me to study in its medicine campus. Not only Biology, I have to pass in chemistry, mathematics and physics!!!!! I do average in chemistry n I hope I can get 80 in it, but physics and math?! Hell, they're the hardest! Today I did my maths exam. I did so very bad and I think I have to re sit the exam. I don't know how I can be so blank when it comes to exam. I thought I understood chapter already, but.... Oh well, I have to study harder in it, I guess. NO. I have to study harder in ALL subjects. Furthermore, I don't really get physics, but I try to not re sit the physics exam. Wish me luck.
One more thing that is making me half crazy: The university entrance exam try out day is coming in less than a month and I haven't learn the subjects of year 10 and 11! ( I miss a year study because in comparison to the British system, the material of year 10 in Indonesia is being taught in 2 years in Britain).
Sigh, I hope I can pass the third year with good grades and enroll in my chosen university. Please, God. Help me! I will study harder and the hardest, but it won'y be accomplished if You are not wanting me to. God, please CHANGE me to be someone that can work harder than this.
One more thing that is making me half crazy: The university entrance exam try out day is coming in less than a month and I haven't learn the subjects of year 10 and 11! ( I miss a year study because in comparison to the British system, the material of year 10 in Indonesia is being taught in 2 years in Britain).
Sigh, I hope I can pass the third year with good grades and enroll in my chosen university. Please, God. Help me! I will study harder and the hardest, but it won'y be accomplished if You are not wanting me to. God, please CHANGE me to be someone that can work harder than this.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
i'm back again.!
As you all know, I spent the last short holiday to go back to qatar. I brought some clothes, shoes, bags, books, accessories, etc. I didn't seem that I brought a little too much, but when I get back to my grandma's, I found it so.
Days at my own house ( well, my dad's) is no difference than before. I'm still the one my mom asked for when it comes to housework. My dad is as annoying as always. My brothers are still fighting with one another, I thought that we are somehow programmed to live like this. I just feel sorry for myself. But I'm lucky that I haven't had the time to be mad at by my dad.
My story today is about my moment in the aircraft.
So, 29th of September was my return day. I prepared evertyhing carefully and try my best to remember evertyhing, so none of my things will be left - but in the end of the day I forgot to bring my mobile's charger and the box.
fast - forwarding, I was at Doha international airport and waited for Gate 2 to be opened. I tried to go online, but all I saw was the browser page saying the no connection thing. Then when the Gate is opened, I went in. Luckily, I met a friend. She also had her flight on the same night and the same airplane as me. So I got a friend to travel with (there was also my dad's friend). The flight went smoothly and I was now in the plane going to Jakarta from Abu dhabi ( i had a transit there). Actually I got seat 20C, but I changed it with my friend who had her seat at the tail of the ship. I was thinking to change my seat with someone near her, but then I could not. Then, there I was. In the middle between an annoying, can't-shut-up woman and a smelly businessman. The first hour was really upsetting but then I got adapted to my place. It was then became funny when the woman started talking to a man across her seat (my dad's friend's friend: I know it's hard to conclude). I don't know how she started, but when I heard it, she was talking about romantic relationship with him. I knew she was attracted to him. The funniest part was when we landed and going into the airport. so she went to the line first, then me, then the man. She asked for her hand luggage, and when she was me behind her, she was quiet. She asked me to change our place! She wanted to be near him! OMG! how could che show it up? had she no shame? I don't know, but it was funnnnnyyy!
Life is really funny at times but really depressing at other times. Momentary first sight attractions are often misjudged as love. Then comes the funny times, and when it fails, the depressing moments arrive. I think the ups and downs of life depends on how we structured them to be,so we should be able to choose the best for it.
note: I saw a cute guy! and it happened on all my journeys. But why can't I ever get the number of one of them?
Days at my own house ( well, my dad's) is no difference than before. I'm still the one my mom asked for when it comes to housework. My dad is as annoying as always. My brothers are still fighting with one another, I thought that we are somehow programmed to live like this. I just feel sorry for myself. But I'm lucky that I haven't had the time to be mad at by my dad.
My story today is about my moment in the aircraft.
So, 29th of September was my return day. I prepared evertyhing carefully and try my best to remember evertyhing, so none of my things will be left - but in the end of the day I forgot to bring my mobile's charger and the box.
fast - forwarding, I was at Doha international airport and waited for Gate 2 to be opened. I tried to go online, but all I saw was the browser page saying the no connection thing. Then when the Gate is opened, I went in. Luckily, I met a friend. She also had her flight on the same night and the same airplane as me. So I got a friend to travel with (there was also my dad's friend). The flight went smoothly and I was now in the plane going to Jakarta from Abu dhabi ( i had a transit there). Actually I got seat 20C, but I changed it with my friend who had her seat at the tail of the ship. I was thinking to change my seat with someone near her, but then I could not. Then, there I was. In the middle between an annoying, can't-shut-up woman and a smelly businessman. The first hour was really upsetting but then I got adapted to my place. It was then became funny when the woman started talking to a man across her seat (my dad's friend's friend: I know it's hard to conclude). I don't know how she started, but when I heard it, she was talking about romantic relationship with him. I knew she was attracted to him. The funniest part was when we landed and going into the airport. so she went to the line first, then me, then the man. She asked for her hand luggage, and when she was me behind her, she was quiet. She asked me to change our place! She wanted to be near him! OMG! how could che show it up? had she no shame? I don't know, but it was funnnnnyyy!
Life is really funny at times but really depressing at other times. Momentary first sight attractions are often misjudged as love. Then comes the funny times, and when it fails, the depressing moments arrive. I think the ups and downs of life depends on how we structured them to be,so we should be able to choose the best for it.
note: I saw a cute guy! and it happened on all my journeys. But why can't I ever get the number of one of them?
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