25 March 2009, nite.

here is my first post. Actually, i made an account looooong time ago,, yet i have no time to manage it. I have been such a busy person - busy with something stupid - and life is just not as reminding as it should be.

Today had been my bad day, perhaps, because i rarely feel actually annoyed by my surroundings. It is just very weird about me that i don't even understand myself!! When someone asks about how I'm doing.. I feel this i-dont-know-what feeling inside my stomach that is literally not good. but i don't have to be sick to be not fine, right?

Anyway, last night i was sick. I had this flu and I think I am fine now. Unfortunately, the sickness spread to my head and stomach! well.. i took a cold shower before i went to bed and ate donut before eating my proper meal. Ugh! i felt terrible. My head spun like... i dont know. It didn't spin.. it throbbed! ouch, ouch,ouch! it should be because I slept with my head not totally dried up. And my stomach! For God sake, i hate stomachache more than any sickness i ever fell in (except running nose). Evenmore when i sleep! I could not feel any relaxation and it feels better to pop or burst like balloons than suffering the pain of a STOMACHACHE! And... uhhh... to be honest.. really.. it feels waaaaay.. - and i mean it- and waaay better when i dont stop farting until the last blow of the gas gets out of my digestive system. Teehee... funny, but it's real. I don't believe if there's a person who thinks that farting is not comfortable. However, when it happens, sometimes the pain DOES NOT go away. it stabs even sharper and meaner. That's the time when I give up to the pain, close my eyes and roll back and forth, just hoping i would fall asleep soon and the pain dies with it. I happened last night. Hufh... a misery of life.

Another misery : running nose. It is painful socially. When the liquid runs down your nose, and got discovered by the person sitting next to you... what would you do and what would they think?
Not many people are understanding. They feel good when they think that you're disgusting. Thats what I hate the most about running nose. People can't be blamed for this as when you happen to see a person with running nose you would feel better when you DO think they are disgusting. To understand is good, but not when you have to tolerate the sound and the mimic of their face when they clean their noses and when this liquid shows up,lying as a pair of 1s under that someone's nose. You can't burst out to laugh, nor make a disgusted expression on your face.
Funny facts are not always laughable.

So now.. I have to be ready for another stomachache. Because since minutes before, the gases inside my tummy are bumping the spincter muscle down my anus, wanting to break free. I have to surrender to them now.